An Earnest Attempt at "Existential" Living

Life is a series of choices.  In each moment we are presented with infinite potential actions; yet, commonly, we act as if these choices are predetermined.  Our inescapable fallibility combined with our human wants--which often are believed to be necessity--leave us to a path that is continuously self-confirmed.  The accumulation of experience becomes a necessary consequence to a rigidly lackluster essence.  

This type of mindset is malicious because it pulls the actor out of the present, into non-present temporal contexts, where one defaults to the path of least resistance.  Memory has the capacity to inhibit the actor, if the past feels fluid, burgeoning alternative outcome trees.  The past must be accepted as rigid, even if it is not completely understood.  The presence of ambiguity in one's past should become immaterial, because it is unchangeable, and unrewarding in fantasy.

The goal is to becomes an autonomous actor, acting spontaneously, grounded in self-identified virtue.  One defines the axioms by which they will live, and attempts to rigidly follow.  One becomes able to shift the rigidity to the present, and the fluidity in the present.  Rewards in memory are simply potential future rewards.  A photograph captures the past, but yields a potential reward only in future sensory consumption.  Reminders of the so-called "best days of our lives"--the college years--will be valuable only in evidence suggesting that "heights" are possible.  More prominently, they will be reminders of the relative diminishment of the present.

So, for a worthy life, one must rely heavily on self-identified virtue, constructed axiomatically.  This is goal-building.  One must make a moral determination on how the environment should be acted on to maintain autonomy.  One can engage in a certain type of behavior in physical, social, and intellectual endeavors that is consistent with the axioms.  One must only self-justify, although collective-justification will inevitably factor into self-justification.

I abruptly end this--